Apr 30, 2004

No longer "demoralizing or confusing"

Yesterday, my dentist replaced a cracked filling. Such things have to be filed down and I had to keep biting on carbon paper. But my mouth hurt and I told the dentist that was as good as it was going to get. She said to come back in if the filling needed further filing; it would take only a minute, no appointment necessary.

This morning, I was late for work – again. (I'm sort of "on report" for it, too). I stood outside my apartment building, not looking forward to clocking in late. My mouth no longer hurt and I could feel my bite better. So, I finally decided to go back to my dentist and get the filling filed. (This meant clocking in late with a good excuse.)

I took the same bus I took yesterday. This time, my bus card was renewed and I got on in the rear. I didn't notice if the woman who sat next to me yesterday came on the bus.

I got off in town at the same bus stop as yesterday. Now I was wondering what would happen if the bum was standing on the same corner as before. But he wasn't. I felt a little silly worrying about a thing like that.

I got to my dentist's office, only to find it was locked. I had just assumed that by 9:30, it would be open, there would be a patient getting treatment already (my appointment yesterday was at 9:45). So I decided to wait. No sooner had I thought that thought, when my dentist showed up, very surprised to see me. It turns out she doesn't work Fridays and had come in today only to finish the taxes (due April 30 in Norway). But it was no problem to take care of my filling, which she did. In 5 minutes I was done, bite feeling just like it did before the filling was changed. I was quite amazed at my luck, too, since normally my dentist wouldn't have been there at all.

On my way back to the bus, I met my bum; he'd moved a couple of blocks. He looked straight at me, moved towards me, and I could hear him clearly asking if I had anything to spare. "Do you want money today, too?" I asked with a smile. He said, "Tomorrow's the first of May." (International Labor Day and a holiday.) While getting my wallet out of my purse, I saw more details about him: His navy blue coat and his shoes were shabbier than I realized. I stuck a 100-kroner bill in his hand with the yellow fingers, and he thanked me. I wondered idly what anyone would make of us two because he was almost two heads taller than me. I wished him happy celebrating and felt a tad stupid right afterwards for that, but was very happy that the whole exchange with him went far more smoothly – almost automatically – today than yesterday.

Somehow, I feel like I was given a second chance.

May you too have a happy May Day celebration!

Apr 29, 2004

Sun Opposition Neptune

My "Personal Daily Horoscope" today from Astrodienst, a serious website and astrological service for both amateurs and professionals:

Surreptitious acts

This may be a day of considerable confusion and uncertainty. On the other hand, you may gain new awareness of and sensitivity to others and their needs and how they relate to your own. Your encounters with others today may be demoralizing or confusing. Your ego energies are not very high, and you are not in a self-assertive mood for vigorous competition. If someone comes at you aggressively, your natural inclination today is to avoid the confrontation...

The interpretation above is for your transit selected for today: Sun Opposition Neptune, activity period from 29 April 2004 to 1 May 2004.

Aggression wasn't a problem, but that first paragraph described a couple of incidents that were unusual for me:

I had a dentist's appointment this morning, and so was taking the bus. My bus card had expired, so I sat down on a seat right behind the driver to fish out some money. I remained on that seat. A woman came on a couple of stops later, and locked eyes with me before sitting down next to me. I then realized that she was mentally handicapped. Then I had a thought that normally wouldn't occur to me: Perhaps I had "taken" her regular seat, disrupting her routine. I was wondering if I should ask her, but decided that if she didn't say anything, neither would I.

But it was what happened after I got off the bus that really echoed today's horoscope: A tall, gaunt, gray-haired man with bright yellow smoker's fingers – looking like the city's "loose birds" as we say in Norwegian – said something to me, but I just shook my head and kept going. Then I had a second thought. Some of the questions that determined whether or not I'd go to some level of Dante's hell were about giving to beggars. I was early for my dentist's appointment, so I stopped around the corner from the man, and fished around for money. I didn't have a 50 kroner bill, but found four 10 kroner coins which I then backtracked to give the man. He took them with his yellow stained fingers, looking confused. As I walked away, I wondered if I had offended him, if maybe he hadn't been asking for money at all. Then I felt cheap, that my sudden bout of generosity hadn't really been that generous because I hadn't wanted to give him my smallest bill, 200 kroner. And then I remembered I had a 100 kroner bill tucked in my keychain (the kind that looks like a small coin purse) and was irritated that I hadn't thought of it. I really couldn't make up my mind about my action or the whole situation.

Definitely "[how] their needs...relate to your own" and "demoralizing or confusing".

PS: No cavities, no problems, a cracked filling got replaced, and even the local anaesthetic felt good. Sun isn't just opposing my Neptune, but also trining all my first house Capricorn (teeth) planets.

Apr 24, 2004

Hell and such

I've always joked about wanting to go to Hell when I die because I want to be with all my friends in the afterlife. Well, it turns out friends may be scattered, anyway – if this questionnaire about which level of Dante's hell you'll end up in is anything to go by. Here are my results after two tries:

First try

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

LevelScore
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Low
Level 2 (Lustful)Moderate
Level 3 (Gluttonous)Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Moderate
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Moderate
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Low

Take the Dante Inferno Hell Test

Second try:

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

LevelScore
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)High
Level 2 (Lustful)Moderate
Level 3 (Gluttonous)Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Very Low

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

What religion?

Next question: What religion am I? There's a questionnaire for that, too. My results with Belief-O-Matic's comments:

Remember: The top score on the list below represents the faith that Belief-O-Matic, in its less than infinite wisdom, thinks most closely matches your beliefs. However, even a score of 100% does not mean that your views are all shared by this faith, or vice versa.

Belief-O-Matic then lists another 26 faiths in the order of how much they have in common with your professed beliefs. The higher a faith appears on this list, the more closely it aligns with your thinking.

Rankings:

  1. Neo-Pagan (100%)
  2. New Age (98%)
  3. Unitarian Universalism (94%)
  4. New Thought (88%)
  5. Liberal Quakers (80%)
  6. Mahayana Buddhism (78%)
  7. Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (77%)
  8. Scientology (73%)
  9. Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (66%)
  10. Hinduism (63%)
  11. Reform Judaism (63%)
  12. Theravada Buddhism (62%)
  13. Taoism (59%)
  14. Secular Humanism (50%)
  15. Sikhism (50%)
  16. Orthodox Quaker (42%)
  17. Bahá'í Faith (41%)
  18. Jainism (40%)
  19. Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (31%)
  20. Nontheist (25%)
  21. Orthodox Judaism (25%)
  22. Jehovah's Witness (23%)
  23. Mainline to Conservative Christian/Protestant (22%)
  24. Seventh Day Adventist (19%)
  25. Eastern Orthodox (12%)
  26. Islam (12%)
  27. Roman Catholic (12%)

I have no idea what a Neo-Pagan is, and the only faith I ever joined, is Religious Science. Anyway, I have a friend who's been answering these same questions, and she blogs, too (hi, beep!), so her blog has been added to my list.

Apr 11, 2004

Magic

Dawn over Bergen There is magic in our mundane little lives. Too bad so many people don't see it. But I'm happy to be your guide for a few minutes.

I attended a stargazing class in March, learning a lot about our nightskies before they got too light. It also clarified a few terms I've used in astrology, like sidereal time. I've discovered that most people don't look up any more. Light pollution can be partially to blame; you can't see much with street lights in your eyes. But mainly it seems that a lot of people just can't be bothered, just don't understand what's so interesting. They no longer know the name of the constellations they once looked at as children.

My stargazing teacher was apparantly a man of science: A medical doctor by day and an amateur astronomer by night. He told us about Bodes' Law and my mind made the connection from that mathematical regularity to the science fiction book "Calculating God" by Robert J. Sawyer (where science is used to prove God's existence). The expression on my teacher's face as I told him what the book was about, told me my teacher thought science fiction was rubbish. I felt sorry for him. He apparantly was not able to let his mind wonder and wander beyond what his senses could tell him. He didn't know how to explore, only to observe. You'll find magic, if you explore.

I attended a weekend class in reiki healing the last weekend of March. Reiki is a method of healing where you allow yourself to be a conduit for the healing life force that is found in everything. No hocus-pocus or religion, which was why I took an interest. But that doesn't mean it didn't bring magic into some people's lives: Several of my fellow students had epiphanies of various kinds, and the shedding of stress and getting grounded also let them see the world literally more clearly. One even said she was amazed at the colors she saw on Sunday versus Saturday.

Our thoughts are constantly somewhere other than where our bodies are. Once we connect the two, we can achieve a meditative state while still doing regular activities. Meditation is just another word for complete concentration. I'm sure you're already familiar with how time ceases to exist when you are completely absorbed in what you are doing. That sort of thing. And being present is also a way to find magic.

I experienced that suspension of time just a few days ago. It was a perfect moment that lasted more than 4 hours, when a friend and I decided to wake up with the birds. That experience was so special, I gave it its own page.

Matter has reached the point of beginning to know itself...
[Man is] a star's way of knowing about stars. --George Wald